The Prime Minister of Malaysia went to some community event and said that the Siamese community in the country will be looked after just like other bumiputeras.

Saatnyaku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang ku tinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
[Mmm] Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua di sini

Tak usah kau tanya kembali
Simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri

一觉睡到自然醒过来，不管这个胡闹时代有多坏
只想在潜意识第六层内，没有心情不出来

I'm an idiot.

Seriously, can I stop doing something stupid? It seems to me the more I'm concerned about someone, the more I appear like an idiot to that person. I'm totally embarrassed by the stupid things I have done and said.

你的爱很像 泡沫
太轻或太重 都不在手中
我的爱就像 天空
太放或太收 你都只是风

你来过 却爱上自由
你出走 我不问理由

我会好好过 等你再爱我
总有个角落 会让你想起我
我会好好过 等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守侯

你留下很多 够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重 重是爱太多
我会好好过 当你回头
看到的一定是我

我会好好过 等你再爱我
总有个角落 会让你想起我
我会好好过 等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守侯

I found them from the Internet but I lost the source. =( Let me know if you happen to know the source so I can link back.

They are in Chinese but I've translated them into English. Corrections are welcome. =)

Although I don't agree with some of them and some others only apply in certain cases, I think many are meaningful and full of wisdom. Take whatever that applies to and works for you. =)

EDIT: The list is pretty long so click the Read More link to read it.

Earlier this week, I came across a tweet on Twitter.

A man asked his mother "How will I ever find the right woman?" She replied "Forget finding the right woman, focus on being the right man."

I thought it was brilliant.

On the next day, it came to my mind again. And I suddenly realised that the same applies in a gay context and to me too.

All this while I have been looking for the right man for me but so far I get nothing.

This tweet has really made me realise how silly I was. I should focus on making myself better instead of looking for someone better.

Seriously, why hadn't I thought of this before?

So I decided to spend less time on Grindr and more time on my personal development.

EDIT: Corrected translation of '红粉' as 'rouge'.

In modern Chinese vocabulary, there's a type of friend that is categorised as '红粉知己', literary means pink rouge confidant. The colour pink word rouge here refers to female. In a straight context, this phrase can mean the woman in a man's extra marital affair or a man's secret lover other than his girlfriend. But in a gay context, this phrase means a trusted female friend whom one can confides anything in.

I think my coming out to a handful of friends has earned me such a friend. She's sensible and rational. She's always ready to give good advices—even if she doesn't have them, she has resources to consult to and in turn forwards the advices to me.

At first, I only talked to her on matters regarding my sexuality, because at that time I was only out to her. But slowly I started to talk about my career, my ambitions etc. and now practically anything when I need opinion on.

I do not have many friends that I can talk to. So when I'm having a hard time, I try my best to get through it. If I really need someone to talk to, I would chat with her. Like the other day, we talked about my career. She told me not to make decisions recklessly.

roti: Okok, promise you I'll think over even if I get an offer tomorrow. You'll be made known about it too.

pink: LOL, knowing u, u'd probably hop on a plane and settle down there, then baru tell me

(I thought that was really true considering my track record to her. I only told her about something happened to me after I have made a decision)

roti: Haha. I'll try not to haha

pink: omg it's 2.40 am. Could you please just sleep already????

roti: Yeah, go to sleep woman.

pink: u've got a haywired bio clock

roti: Damn true

pink: yeah yeah good night gay man

roti: good night woman :)

I think that's a casual conversation, which rarely happens on me. I can hardly put up a casual conversation like this with others.

While I may not be successful in looking for my significant other, I think at least there's someone I can talk to when I need some sense of acknowledgement. I'd say I'm pretty lucky already.

Do you have such a friend? Male or female?

猜不透 你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心 上了锁

猜不透 相处会比分开还寂寞
兩个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱 是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔 是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错 我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

我相信苦涩的眼泪
我不信甜美的誓言

我相信爱情的纯粹
我不信华丽的诗篇

我相信热烈的争辩
我不信无声的和谐

我相信秒秒的瞬间
我不信年年的永远