during my away for months, i got to know a lot of people, possibly the most ever i got to know in such a short period of time. and i kept contact with some of them.
it was until today i got to know that one of them is gay. i wasn't surprised as there were one clue on him, although not an absolute indicator, which made me had a blink of mind that he might be gay.
likewise, when i told him on msn that i probably will not get married for the rest of my life. he seems to be able to comprehend and he told me that he probably won't too. then the same consensus is with us that we are on the same boat. the rest of our conversation is typical.. asking each other when did we found out about ourselves, and when did we suspect each other.. the word gay didn't appear explicitly throughout the conversation but we can safely assume that both of us meant the same thing.
it's good to know at least there's a real friend that i can talk to from now on..
on the other hand, my plan to leave is firm now. by next year i won't live in this big city anymore. maybe it's not a wise decision all together, to quit my current job and leave this place, but i don't want to be regret for not trying to achieve what i want. the robbery and the months-away are probably hints from the heaven for me to make this decision.
life is full of ups and downs... although i may not used to it either, but i still stay on... if you plan to go away for other reasons, then you should... but if you leave because of robbery, then how about you get another robbery from another city? will you leave again and again?
ReplyDeleteit wasn't because of the robbery, but many other considerations.. my career, family, responsibility etc.. i would say it was because of the robbery that triggers me to start considering if i should really live the way i m living now.
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