I realize I enjoy being alone more.
I actually feel placing my affection on someone real and reachable in my life causes me more troubles than the pleasure it would give.
And so, I've decided to leave again. This time I really don't seem to have any reason to stay anymore (yet I have several to leave).
It may be a pity as it ended up this way. But I feel freer. And I have recently diverted my affection towards a celebrity that I can never reach. I think my life has become as easy as before without those love worries.
Let it be my fault for not being faithful to my love.