Need some peace

I really need some peace.

Neverending family affairs. My family has never been in peace ever since I was young. Until today I'm still not sure what is the root of the problem but I think every member in the family is responsible for it.

There was a time I thought my family is finally in harmony but it turns out not. Apparently everything was swept under the carpet and had turned into landmines, awaiting to be triggered.

Recently, something triggered the mines right there. Being part of the family, I inevitably got dragged into this. They claimed that I am one of the causes of the fight, something on me that's really petty and hardly related to what the fight is about.

Every time there's a fight in the family, I've always been stuck in the middle. It's never an easy job to please both parties and have them come into a peace treaty. I'm not a powerful member in the family to have both parties listen to me. Even though I have been trying, they never really listened.

I thought of pretending nothing happens and stay outside of it. But there was always a part of me thinking that being a member of the family, I have the responsibility to make sure it's harmonious. So I always try to resolve the conflicts in some ways, even though I know they never really listened to me.

But now I'm really tired of this. I really think I should wash my hands of this. Since the ladies think I am also one of the reasons for the fight this time, I should really stay far away from both parties to avoid being one of the reasons for their next fight. It's also better for me because I can finally stay out of the fight.

So here I'm now planning for another move. Other factors such as job and realizing the need of some freedom also further validate the move.

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