I'm missing A again.
I wonder if this happens to everyone.
It was saddening.
After I got back up again, I started to miss A. Again.
It seems to me, A has brought me to a stage in a relationship no one else has ever brought me to before.
I kind of hate A. I hate him for not holding on to our relationship. I hate him for dumping me just like that. I hate him for not giving me a reason for his leaving. I hate him for not being there for me during my hardest time.
But I clearly know that the fundamental reason I hate him is that I still love him.
Sorry for being soppy again.